We lay face to face in her dimly lit room. Her breath is sweet and blue eyes piercing through me as her hand gently caresses my face. The corners of her lips turn upward into a smile. Barely audible, she speaks. Mommy, I love you. Mommy, you are so beautiful. My heart stops, I hold … Continue reading
For the joy and for the pain… For the laughter and the tears… For the celebrations and the disappointments… For the wins and the losses… For the joy and the sorrow… For the fights and the forgiveness… For the challenges and perspective… For the resolve and the respect… For the patience… For the loyalty and … Continue reading
From near and far we gathered. Flights arrived from Los Angeles, Chicago, Dallas, Hartford and Boston. Road trips were made from Virginia, North and South Carolina. Schedules were cleared, time was set aside to gather together, hundreds of emails were sent, maps and directions checked and double checked, party rentals ordered, copious amounts of food … Continue reading
We’re all waiting for something. Whether banal or earth shattering, each something we wait for means something meaningful to each of us. If there’s one thing I’ve learned writing this blog, it’s that while I write for me and my family, I’ve come to appreciate that what I write affects others. If I’m feeling something, … Continue reading
It had been three years. Three years that felt like three minutes once she walked in the door. Our lives have changed dramatically and the challenges we face have grown exponentially in the years since we were last together. Yet the beauty of our friendship has continued to shine through the years and the distance. … Continue reading
I took a few hours today and went for a long, long, long walk. With Harper bundled in her stroller, music playing in my ears and a longing to get out and get away, the two of us fled the grind of the suburban landscape. Friday can’t come soon enough. The weight of the count … Continue reading
Thanksgiving is in 30 days. How that’s even possible is another subject matter entirely. In keeping with the tradition we began last year, tonight marked day one of thirty we’ll spend reflecting on what we’re grateful for leading up to Thanksgiving. Our tree of thanks, thanks Pottery Barn, is hung back up and leaf number … Continue reading
What was supposed to be a lazy family Friday night, chowing down on our favorite local pizza on the couch and getting ready to watch baseball together, turned into something entirely different. From the moment the CNN cameraman and producer walked out my door on Thursday, my body started screaming at me. To say that I was exhausted from race weekend and getting … Continue reading
It’s been months since Cooper and I sat in the basement for hours filling Dixie cups with potting soil and planting seeds. We spent weeks as a family watching seeds flourish and others fail to grow or thrive in our make-shift greenhouse set up each year by my bedroom windows. Hours were spent, as they are each year in late winter, tilling the … Continue reading
I, and we have overcome quite a bit these last few years. Obviously the brain tumor is on the top of the list, but the list is long and filled with a lot of challenges we or I’ve managed to overcome. To say the journey is complete, there are no daily challenges or emotional … Continue reading
I’m not sure I’d really want an instruction book for life if one existed. The existence and possession of one would likely serve to only remind me of all the things that I’m failing at or doing wrong. Yet, there are times when having one to reference would, at the very least, be helpful. Not too much gets me flustered, but … Continue reading
In the midst of living comfortably in our ‘normal’ and willingly sharing the emotions of our journey along the way, I still get caught off guard and it’s not always a bad thing. While I don’t share all that I write and I don’t share all that is our life and my every single feeling … Continue reading
It all began here and it’s been a long 8 months. Long would certainly be one way to describe the time. These have also come to mind and were uttered often… nightmare, endless, miserable, lonely, challenging, exhausting, heart-broken, desperate, proud, strong, capable, accepting and appreciative. Above all, setting aside all the words, feelings and fits … Continue reading
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